And I Quote:

"In a manner of speaking I just want to say that i could never forget the way you told me everything by saying nothing"-Tuxedomoon



Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Pointless Things.

Why are you fighting to get a new pair of shoes, when you could give money to the poor. Why are you wasting your time just sitting around doing nothing, when people out there need you. Gays can't marry, you don't care. People are dying cause they really can't do shit about it, and you dont care. Like really and people say I'm full of myself, now I know not everybody reading this is um...well you know. But really we may be young but if we speak up then people older will say something. Come on guys, we talk and talk about changing shit around here, do we? NO! Why cause it's not worth our time. And girls think the have to be this to be that, people are lossing loved ones, and you don't care...god! Come on guys says something and say it loud!

Friday, September 3, 2010

Things You Didn't Hear...

...I'd fall so easily for you.
...So badly I can't even feel the cut.
...To make him mine.
...You don't care for me, you don't miss me, I'm not what you want,She's already your's, I can't feel your touch like she does, I can't be the one girl you think of 24/7, I don't feel good enough for you, I feel as though I've been left in the dark, I crave your everything from a smile to a smirk, How i'm out of line in so many ways, How you'll never be mine.
...Your smile, Your eyes, Your laugh, Your touch, The way you use to hug me, The way you bug me, The way you're always on my mind, How I miss you, How I care for you, The way you look at her and how badly I wanna be her.
...I could be the girl you hold close.
...A time where you and I are an us.
...Didn't I tell you first.
...Could you do this to me.
...Are you really.
...Will we be.
...Is the point of me trying you'll never care.
...Will I go without you, you are my EVERYTHING why wont you hear me.
...You are reasons you will never know all just because you dont listen to me.
...Alone so the scars can stay closed.
...The only one I trust with my life.
...All I really want is you.
...I live up to the type of girl you want.
...Be the one you want!!! She's a self centered bitch!
...Are so much more, so much more I'll never have.
...Should give up here and shut my mouth.
...For the truth I know that now.
...The simple smiles you get when you see ME!
...All to broken for his own good.
...So sad and broken seem to speek all to well for me.
...Thats all because you won't listen to me.
...To die in peace but really, where is the peace in this.
...From your lies and games.
...Can't live without you but I cant live with you.
...Is there and its not going away so its time to stand up and walk away from you.
Good-bye.

Things Left Un-said

Who knew...
You hurt me...
Dear dairy I'm to late...
Life could have been...
10 things I hate about myself...
10 things I like about you...
Oh how I wish...
Will there ever be...
Why..
How...
Who..
When...
What...
Where...
Why I cry for...
Reasons better left...
Tear from me to...
Lies from me to myself cause...
How can I...
How can she...
But you...
Nothing to say but I...
To soon for...
Speechless from...
Touched and hurt by and angel thats...
Songs that are...
Things unfinshed but...
Left alone to...
Here dying from...
There I told you I...
Still the pain is...
...




ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING TO ME!!??

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Alone

Tears,
Cuts,
Lies,
Heartbreaks.

It's a teenage war out here,
You fight to stay alone,
You fight to stay cool,
No matter what you're fighting for something.

I'm fighting to be alone,
I don't need little bitches following me around,
I dont need boys all over,
I hate this.

This life we are forced to live,
You people don't see shit,
She maybe pretty and the coolest girl ever,
But she could be so uncomfortable in her own skin.

He's the biggest dick this world has ever seen,
But really it's what lye underneath that makes him this way,
People picking on him,
Parents fighting.

You people have no soul,
No heart,
Why?
Cause not one of you see's that everybody is alone.

I wrote this poem cause me as a 14 year old girl know how hard it is to seem like you're just like everybody else. We all judge by how people act or look but really we are never looking at the real person just the puppet that faces us everyday. Take the time to step out of your stupid little fucking bubble and let others in and see you and find out who they are. Like really! Everybody now a day's in high schools are fucking bitches or dicks! Get real people this world doesn't belong to just you! Grow up.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

I Realized...

When people you care for leave you,
Alot comes into play,
Hate,
complete saddness,
You even loss yourself.

I do hate you,
I was sad,
But I found myself.

You pushed me down,
And I got right back up,
Showed you what your dealing with,
And left.

I think everybody is right,
I'm to good for you,
I do what I'm told,
I never lie when dating.

And you,
You tried to change everything about me,
Sadly I did change for you,
Cause I didn't want to lose you.

I realize now,
Lossing you,
Was the greatest thing ever.

When...

When you asked me out,
The world seemed perfect,
When you kissed me for the first time,
Time it's self stood still,
When the walls came crashing down,
So did I,
You gave me the wrong good-bye,
When the walls stood strong,
I stood weak,
But once I realized,
You were dead to me,
You alway's had been,
I had been a fool,
A fool to let you in,
I grow strong,
I moved on,
From you,
From your lies,
From your games you played with my heart,
From your nasty cold grib,
And now,
Now i hope you die,
Inside,
Just as I did,
The day you said good-bye,
Now I say good-bye,
Good-bye to you,
And the beating thing in your chest you sadly call a heart.

Hugging My Knees

After all you did,
To me,
I thought,
I could just leave,
Leave everything we had been behind.

But when i heard you asked her out,
I don't what,
But something died even more,
I don't like this,
This pain eating at me.

But the idea of someother girl,
Sharing momments with you,
Like the ones we had,
I don't think I could handle that.

I want you out,
Out of my heart,
Out of my mind,
Out of my life.

What do I care if you hate me,
What do I care if call and tell me you love me,
It doesn't matter anymore,
And I know that you don't.

That you don't care,
I sit alone at night hugging my knees,
As tears roll down my face,
That you don't care,If i died tonight

.I don't like you,
I don't love you,
I don't want you,
I don't need you,
I don't believe,
I don't feel,
I do live in a shell,Thanks to you.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Another Day Walking Down The Broken Road

Another day,
Walking down,
The broken road,
Nothing new,
Just things growing older with time,
On this,
Broken road,
That i call home,
These tear's i cry,
Come with every crack,
In this,
Broken road,
Many people ask me,
Why dont you fix the broken road,
But you see it's harder then jsut words,
For this broken road,
Is my broken heart,
Shattered by the hand i so truly loved.

All The Same

No offense to the guys out there but...this is just so true to most of you.

You can sit there and tell your self that no body knows him liek you that he is so different but thats only cause your dating him the momment you two are no longer together he see's you differently treats you differently and you...your left alone hurt and with more then half of your friends staring down on you telling you i told you so. guys are all the same inside and outside, we girls always get hurt, we cry night after night and the guys just dont get it! Guy why can't you see we cry cause we loved you or still do and you broke our hearts and all we ask is to be a friend to us...dont treat us like dirty dont just be like "ok then" when we tell you how we feel for you open your eyes and see we only do it cause are biggest fear came true...we lost you...god guys just dont get it and never will...

Thursday, May 6, 2010

A Flower

Flower's stand strong,
when the wind blows,
when the rain falls,
and no matter how hard their life gets,
they take everything bad and turn it good.
So can you be a flower?
Can you be strong?
Can you let your inner beauty shine?
Everybody can,
cause life is like so many things,
a river,
a flower,
EVERYTHING!
Life is an amazing thing not a gift,
but a right to some.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

You said it your self..you thought you loved me.

She sits alone in her room on the edge of her bed,
the moonlight shinning down on her making her tears shine as the rolled down her cheeks,
her phones light just skimming her hair,
her eyes stuck on his words,
I Thought I Loved You But...Now I Know I Don't So It's Over I'm Sorry,
Dieing inch by inch as every second ticked away,
she'd given everything to this boy.

She walk down the school halls,
her messy hair covering her eyes,
her once full of joy blue eyes,
but now dull as the gray rained out sky,
he walks past her she stop and thinks to her self "he played me...he played me...he pleay me",
he stopped in front of her and handed her a folded up note,

She lye on her bed playing through the day,
she remembers the note in her back pocket,
she sits up unfolding the note,
it read Do you remember the story i told you about the boy and girl...the one i saw all over facebook and stuff...well if you dont here it is again
"the girl asks her boyfriend 'do you think im pretty'
the boy replys 'no'
the girl asked 'do you want me'
yet again the boy replied 'no'
the girl asked one more thing 'do you like me'
the boy looked at her and said 'no'
the girl had heard enough and started to walk away until he yelled 'wait'
she turhed with tears rolling down her face
' i dont think your pretty i think your beautiful, i dont want you i need you, and i dont like you i love you'
the girl stood in silcne as he moved towards her..."
and thats all i can remember really thats all i think is there...and after all he did to her he fixed it and she gave him another chance...and i was hoping you could give me another chance..

The girl walked into schoo lthat day smiling,
her blue eyes were as blue as the sky,
her hair perfectly brushed and left to lye on her shoulders,
she walked right up to him and passed him the note turning away and walknig to her locker,
she let out a sigh and mummbled under her breath "you played me...and im happy your gone",
that night the boy opened the letter to see a thin line of writing,
You told me you thought you loved me but you were wrong and now you want me back well let me tell you i know i loved you but nowi dont you shattered my heart and now im free from your cold and rude grib so now i say my fair wells to you cause liek you said i thought i loved you...,
he fell back onto his bed wishing he never cheated on her or used her,
she was the greatest thing that had happened to him.

that night the girl turned her phone off put it on her side table,
picked up her bag,
and walked out the front door of her house never looking back once,
all because a boy broke her heart.

Music Drunk

I'm one of those girls who has a song for every mood and any kind of day, im the music drunk bitch you find listening to her i-pod well laughing her ass off at the stupid shit her friends say well her boyfriend stands on the side laughing with his friends, i dont need to type of drink to get me drunk i just need the right kindof music and i'll be better then a drunk chick crazy and care free. Music is away to show how you feel or hide how you feel in your own little way's and its a great way to help the rough school year go by way faster sadly im failing and need this year to go by slower then faster :) yeah i know im a retard haha, but hey all those music drunks out there have a little reatard in all of them but not all really...just remember music is the key to alot of things

Monday, May 3, 2010

You!

Your sitting at your desk or on your bed reading this right now, and your probly think ok cool whatever or why wont this bitch shut up. well i already told you why, and i know a few of you reading this are probly total outcast but dont worry i'd like to think i am to :) but see the thing is about me everybody in my school knows me and likes me one way or another but i hang out the cool people-the losers- but in my eyes they are the coolest crowd of gals n guys i know, and its better to be a total outcast cause then your not freaking out about what you look like what your wearing or how you act, my boyfriend is a jock i will say that but he is one of the most lyed back kind of jocks i know, and to me jocks are stuck up jackasses who think that the only thing that matters about their girlfriends are 1.how big are her knockers 2 how tight is her ass 3.how far will she let me go, god i hate boys sometimes, but you know i dont hate all those little preps ot there cause some of them arent that bad but some of them are type i just wanna turn around tell them to fuck off and leave. But this blog isn't about it's about you, jock, prep, or total outcast-if your a total outcast you are now one of my new best friends :) oh yes i did!- everybody has there own way of showing who they are...i just hope your the one who stands up and says something ever once in awhile when you know its the time to...

Follower and Leaders

Today i was walking ni the halls with my gal pals-yes i say stuff like "gal pals"-and it hit me, in this world there are really only two types of people you have your follwers and your leaders. i for one am not a follower i am a leader, i show teenages in my class it doesnt matter who you are it just matter's that you show your true colours in your own ways, i'm the girl you'll find wearing purple skinnies and a blue shirt-that almost goes down to my knees and is a good type of tight- with a blue, pink, purple, and black belt over top of that blue shirt. and some of my friends i will say are followers and some of the people i know are followers like really...just cause its "in style" you have to get it like com on girls/guys its your life and its either you take control now or get ready to let someone else get in the front seat of your car and take you where they want to go even if thats not what you wanted...lifes a bitch and if you dont start fighting for your right ot be you now...then i guess your fucked.

Guys Are The World Biggest Jerks!

Not meannig to be a bitch to all the guy out there but god! Can't you guy think with the head on your flipping shoulders for once! your all the same every single one of you! Dicks to your girlfriend around your stupid friends and behide closed doors you guys are the nicest person ever! Get real ok cause some of you are total air heads not all just some. like i just cant get ovet how many dicks there are out there and most of them are guys! i dont think i've ever been in a realtionship where the guy was willing to treat me like his world when he was around his friends...or kissed me good-bye well his friends were watching! in my eyes boys can be real dicks all the time! only some of them though not all of them!

Sunday, May 2, 2010

I Don't Think...

I don't think you'd care if i ran away tonight and never cam back,
I dont think that you'll ever understand how i really feel about you,
I dont think you'll ever understand what i put myself through just to see you smile,
I dont think...well really i dont think you care about me in any way humanly possible,
But i do think that one day you'll understand be,
But i know it wont be soon enough,
But i'll carry on doing what i do just to see how close i can get to opening you up,
I dont think you'd care if i ran away tonight and never came back,
I dont think that you'll ever understand how i really feel about you,
I don't think you'll ever understand what i put myself through just to see you smile,
But i just want to tell you...I Love You

Hey...

Hey my names Dallas Kennedy my friends call me Jd. im starting this blog cuz im going through all that stupid jr./sr. high drama and its a killer, it makes me and my boyfriend fight, my friends turn on me. Yet no body seems to understand...and those out there like me...i so understand...this is my life through jr./sr. high and the problems we are gonig to face...